The Birth of my baby Little Dinosaur ... (The very first three months)

Hello to all the zai zai lui lui reading this =) Hope that your day is fine yesterday, and will be good too, today. 

The weather is crazy. So hot but glad it's not humid or else it'll be like *$)%(#^!@#* already. I only slept merely 4 hours @_@ and im up early in the morning. (Gosh, i slept 'early' too. ) Rushing myself out to finish the task leftover by yesterday *caused by the sudden strike of feeling to start blogging*. Duh ! Ka yao ~ Ka yao ~ Ka yao ~ Ka yao ~ I have a feeling that i had to prepare myself for some sleepless nights already ~

Hmm ... What should i write leh ? I've been thinking and considering and wondering for 30 minutes ... Running to toilet, to the kitchen, to my bed, lying there for awhile and back to my laptop, i still can't figure out what people like you like to read in other people's blog. Any head start ?

OooOOouuuu *hehpiii* Got some head start from Facebook oledi. I'll write the fairytale story *that will probably bore all of you to death* about my baby Little Dinosaur just for Jynee =) Two years ago, when i first posted up Little Dinosaur's picture, alot of strangers messaged me wanting to know what's so special about this little baby of mine because he seemed very very precious to me. Even magazines interview asked me about him but i just pass over coz i wouldn't wanna bore the readers. 

Jynee, because of you oh, jie will pen down Little Dinosaur's biography for the first time after 2 long years =) OoOoOoo ... i love Facebook =) Especially the girls .... they are all so true ... and caring =) Muacks **

So this, is my baby Little Dinosaur's Biography... *breath deep deep in*

I see myself as a disciplined person. Both in my work, and my love life. I met my man in 2006 and we started seeing each other on 11th May 06. Things went well for 2 years but i guess you all know that when Boy meets Girl and Girl meets Boy, they fell in love, went on, carry on, quarrel on, blame on, yadaa yadaa yadaa... My love story, fuhh ! Same loh. Some major problem that had been on and off in both our life just KapusSssh like bom atom falls on our fairytale castle. It happened on the 18th May 2008, approximately a week after we proudly celebrates 2nd year of victory in conquering and taking VVIP places in each other's heart and mind *arms wide open*

I am a fighter in life, not verbally though. I sketched out a story about us in cartoon form. There's 20 pages of it with only two characters - The Dinosaur, and The Lovely Other Dinosaur. I couldn't possibly remember words by words and write it out 100% the original version coz it's 20 pages of cartoons and funny pop out word boxes. But this is what i wrote ... *by page*

Page 1/ Once upon a time in a far far away land, high high up on the mountain, there's a Dinosaur.

Page 2/ The Dinosaur lives in his cold cold ice cage from the outside world. Anyway, it's HIS cage.

Page 3/ There along, came the Lovely Other Dinosaur.

Page 4/ And The Lovely Other Dinosaur melted The Dinosaur's ice cage.

*now that's the starting of our journey together from the day we met* 

From page 5 all the way to page 19, the Dinosaur cartoon story was about A wondering why B at times seemed so near in the eye, but yet so far away in heart. And B too, had been wondering why A at times seemed so near in the eye, but yet so far away in heart... *story goes on* And in the end, they finally see the problem in them. That they only see others in their own eyes, but forgetting to see themselves in others' eyes. That they were rightfully always right about things, about ways of getting things sorted out and others were all wrong from the start. 

Page 20/ The Dinosaur and The Lovely Other Dinosaur lived happily forever and ever ...

The two Dinosaurs character that i drew was hilarious ~ Haha ~ I see when im free im gonna scan it and post it for your pleasure viewing. Hahaha *cant stop laughing* We read it once in awhile, to laugh it over. The book, was like the trailer of the turning point in our life. And our baby Little Dinosaur, is what changes everything. He is our everything.

Here's why. After i finito the little book, i wrapped it up nicely with present wrapping paper and a nice box with some deco on it, and i passed it to him. I guess he brought back home and read it later in the evening.

He came to my house later in the evening with this special Little Dinosaur. He put it on my table and the first thing i said to him was 'What's that?' And at first i thought it looked weird. But i guess what i can say is, that was when i first saw him - my baby Little Dinosaur, and everything was history !

Little Dinosaur was only named a few weeks after he stayed in. The first few weeks was just normal. I have my teddy bears, my bunnies, my flowers and all those dolls lying at the corner. But he was special. He's the only doll that i never chuck aside, like, ever, ever from the first day he was given to me. Maybe because i felt connected to him, abide to the characters in the story that i wrote and drew. 

I hug him to sleep every night. Feeling loved, just like the love given by my man. Little Dinosaur is like the replica of my man. Whenever he's not around, he'll be here with me, giving me the care and that bear hug ... always being there for me ... just like him.

Little Dinosaur doesn't have clothes to wear. Nothing. I dont bring him out, i dont feed him, dress him up, carry him everything, taking pictures of him, creating accounts for him, no. Just, nothing. He lye on my bed and he just stays there until i come home at night and i will hug him to sleep and the days go on. Until ...

The 2nd June 08, i was invited to appear in the opening of the Rainforest Sports Bar in Pavilion just few weeks after Pavilion shopping mall was officially open. At this time, he hadn't got his name yet. I brought along the team and models from my magazine to attend the grand opening together with the celebrities and VIPs. That night, right before i left my home, i felt something strange. My man will be having a meeting near by Pavilion so we are having our supper together after we finish what we're doing. I suddenly feel for him. I stared at him, thinking for him. Looking at him lying on the bed alone makes me feel that he might be lonely. So, i took him with me and drove him to Pavilion with me.

And of course, i dare not carry him down with me. Everyone would have thought i am crazy. And i brought the whole troop. Like i said, i left him there...in the front bucket seat. I parked at the VIP parking right in front of the door and start the whole red carpet thingy going on. I spend an hour taking pictures, by medias, my friends, my people. And suddenly i thought of him. I walked to my car and peek into the window. Well, he cant move himself so, yes, he is THERE.

My people are very very caring and loving people. I didn't notice that they were walking me to my car from my back until i turned around and got shocked coz they were doing the same thing i did - peeking into my window. They tot i forgot something or gonna get something heavy from my car or so, so they wanted to help me with what they thought i was going to do. Then when i told them i's just bored so i walk to my car, they asked me at the same time 'What is that?'. Wow. That's a good question. So, where should i start ? Haha =) I just answer something else so they say he's cute and it strike me, it just, strike me.

I asked them whether they can do me a favor, a quick one. To snap a quick picture of me and him, and make it quick before anyone sees me. And that's how the cute Little Dinosaur adventure started. He snapped his first picture. In Pavilion, in front of The Rainforest Sports Bar, at the VIP entrance, with me. And he still hadn't got his name yet. That night, during the supper, he stays in my bucket seat again ...

On the 28th June 08, i's organizing a pre-launch party at Bar Club for my magazine. I didn't take him with me. But the first thing i did when i reach home was carrying him up from the bed, and hugging him tight, and we took this picture ... his second picture ever taken.

On the 12th July 08, he went out together with us. And it was his third time going out, but first time going out with the both of us together.

And this was the first ever fun stuff that he does. Driving us. Our hearts were filled with so much joy when our face is with much joy. The feeling is different from our everyday laughter. Coz this laughter goes deep into our hearts, and are brought by love, sending the message all the way up to our face.

It was then when it inflect into our hearts that we decided to bring baby down from the car that night. We'd decided not to go home early today so we stopped by a mamak along the Old Klang road for TT. And my man strike the first ever pose he ever did. And this, is his first ever pose, in the first ever picture taken with a 'pose'. Cute ma ? Teehee. I think he's waxing a shy 'Hi!' to the world.

Bringing him out is still a choice then. On the 9th August 08, we're going for a Birthday party i threw for my lil sister in KL. And we'd decided to bring him out with us. This time, he went to the steering, and the gear. We didn't bring him down to the party though.

On the 15th August 08, we brought him along to a trip back to my hometown Kuantan. It was his first trip =) and he's still ... waxing his little shy 'Hi!' to all of you.

I seldom smile back then. Coz i guess i am more of a serious person. But with him, i smiled, from my heart. We took a Presidential Suite for 2 nights in Hyatt. And i guess because there's ample of space in our suite, we start to created emotions and movements for him. He is like, living...having his own soul in him. Look at the picture above, i see a baby's curiosity towards the surroundings and the world had begun...

I couldn't remember the specific date that we named him - Little Dinosaur. But the reason why he was named Little Dinosaur is because he is so small in size ... And thru his eyes, i see an innocent child, neglected and chucked aside by the world. With so much care for everyone around him, and so much love to give, and joy to share ... Little Dinosaur is no longer the replica of my man. Little Dinosaur became a part of us... And this picture, somewhere around those time, those month, he was given a soul. He has a new life ...

And from that day on, Little Dinosaur is no longer alone. He has a place to belong to ... and things to look forward to everyday ... He is cared, loved and pampered. Just like how everyone of us is living everyday in our lives, wanting only the simplest and most basic needs of all mankind, which cant be bought, but hard to be fulfill.

So many things have changed from there on. Not only for him, but for us too. We learn to love, forgive and forget. Our life is different there on ... Our views and perceptions to things had been different too.

This blog is about how Little Dinosaur came into life, touches my heart, and touches so many other along the way. Giving only love, care and joy to the world around him. And being there for all the broken hearts and souls that were abandoned by others, hurt, and left alone in this world. Dont be sad. You have Little Dinosaur with you ...

No matter how different you are, it doesn't matter how others think of you, look at you and what they have to say about you. Deep inside, this is who you are ... and this is who you want to be ... Open your heart ... Do what u want to do, and be who u want to be. Create the impossible and let them say what they want to say ...

To all the beautiful people in this room who had been treated unfairly by others and left alone in this world feeling worthless and lonely, dont give up ! There's always someone, someplace there for you. U never know ... maybe coz u doesn't believe strong enough in yourself, deep inside your heart, telling u just what u can do ... and who u can be ...

You will never be alone my dear ... me and my Little Dinosaur will always be here for you ...

Love Always,

Leng Yein