Chasing back time ...

Every day in our life, we see new things, meet new people, new faces ... Things get a little over the top sometimes. The urge, that push us forward again and again whenever we see something fascinating, something new. Something that we would like to have or own. Something that stops your heartbeat and go Gaga all over them. Something that catches everyone's attention and make everyone go head over heels and get Oh-all-so-jealous over them.

When is the last time you took an hour off, took a pen, a piece of paper (i need more than 1 piece *giggle*), and write down what you have done in past months, and what are you going to do in the upcoming months ? Do you or do you not know your own life well ? Have you notice any progress ? Is your way of doing things progressive enough ? Have you got what you wanted all along ? Is that what you really wanted ?

There are so many things that we want, we wished for, and looking forward to. Many of us often ask ourselves, some even do it daily. I'll just pick one random thoughts for instant - ''Why cant i have that too?''

Sometime, somehow, you'll see some pretty looking girls carrying their Louis Vuitton, sashaying their Chanel, blinging that Van Cleef and Arpels on the red carpet event on a picture somewhere. Facebook ? Perhaps. In blogspot ? Maybe. Or Friendster ? Hmm ... Possible.

It all starts with a simple thought, which grow from our basic needs to sky high demands. And yet at last, it all got back to basic. Have you gone through this phase in life ? If you haven't, you're on the way. If you have, well done !

It may start from a 13 years old boy, thinking ' I wanna have the hottest chick in school as my girlfriend.' Then eventually he got her. After sometime, some years, he goes ' Nah, i deserve better than this. I want a famous model in the print ads and magazines everyone see.' And then he got her as well. And sometime, some years after that, he goes ' Nah, i want a Miss Malaysia' yadaa.. yadaa.. yadaa.. ok the story goes on UNTIL one day, he got all serious and say ' Well, guys. I am so tired of all these stuff. I want a simple girl, a girl with a kind heart and a caring soul. A girl who'll likely be there for me when im alone, when i needed a bear hug. A girl who can get 'me' outta being me, and see me the way no one else does...' And his friends were shocked and ask 'What ? Why ?' And he just smiled, and walked away smiling ... 'I found what i was looking for ...' he whispered.


It may start from a 13 years old girl who came from a simple family background. Seeing all her friends were going to school with their ADIDAS shoe, she got her mum to get her one as her birthday present. From that day onwards, she never wore BATA anymore. As years gone by, she came out to work. Her colleagues were taking GUESS bags. She got herself one right after she got her first month's pay. Few months after that, she saw one of her colleague carrying a DKNY. So she went and got herself a Calvin Klein. One afternoon, She saw her colleague going out for lunch break with a new D&G clutch, so she went and bought a Dolce&Gabbana. 

A year later, a new girl came in for interview and joined the company. Everything she wears has to be at least Armani Exchange. And everyone went Armani- Exchange-crazy !To prove that she is better than all her colleague and to show them that she can afford more than A|X, she splurge on Giorgio and Emporio, and not buying the cheapest range of all brands. And she became the most frequent-talked-about person in splurging. Everyone adores her bag, her shoes, all the brands that she's carrying, just everything.

She frequent to functions, events, red carpets. When all eyes are on her, people would ask about the brands and prices on what she's wearing, and 'Who' is she wearing. She got more into brand and started to sling the Louis Vuitton, CHANEL,  Hermes, Dior, YSL, Versace, Gucci, Prada all and all on her tiny little shoulder. Years gone by, her collections were stacked and chucked by a corner. One fine day, one of her colleague asked her, 
' Hey, my friend emailed me the latest limited edition from Louis Vuitton and it's costs a bomb ! Have you got it yet ?' 
Then, she smiled, and say 'Ya. The design is great. They called me and i collected it 2 weeks ago' 
And her friends asked again ' Wow ~ Why didn't you bring it out ? I thought you'll bring your new piece to work every time you bought a keeper ! Show us ! Show us ! ' 
And she replied ' Nah, i leave it at home. If you want, i'll bring it tomorrow.' 
And her friend says ' Wah, if it's me, i'll sure bring it out to show the world. Everyone would be dying jealous of me.'
And she replied 'Bags and brands are not for showing off. Maybe it used to be. But now, for me, It's more of a present to myself after all my hard work. To tell and remind myself just how well i've done and  what i deserve. Im actually kinda numb and bored of the brand-conscious thoughts that i used to have. Now that i see something, i would consider the practicality of it, rather than buying brands for the sake of buying the brand.'
Her friend then asked her 'I thought you always love branded stuff ?'
And she says ' Yes. Used to be. But no more. I mean, i still love them, but they're not that important to me anymore ... They're pretty, and that's all about it.'
Her friend was so very curious and asked her, 'Why ?'
And she told her friend ' Because be it branded or not, the reason I used to love it so much was because deep inside my heart, i know that i can't afford to buy the piece i love because it was too expensive. And knowing that i cant have it made it dear to me. But when i finally capable of buying everything i want, they dont actually weight that much in my heart anymore. What i rather do now is to do whatever i want, whenever i want, having the freedom to go wherever i want. And live everyday, a happy day. That's all i want. A bag won't make my whole day happy, just that 1 hour, maybe. But a call, a caring sms from a faraway person, a beautiful gathering with my beloved friends, and a wonderful vacation with my loved ones will.' 
And all her friends doesn't understand what she means. Coz they haven't got what they wish for yet ... Have you ?

When a person wish for something, that wish were made because they haven't got what they wanted. But when a person's wish come true, they'll set another wish to follow tru. When their second wish come true, so goes the third and the fourth and so ... What is left to pursue ? The material things in life, or the meaning of things in life ? They might be the same object, but they have two very different purpose served. And the purpose, sets two very different path.

When we're young and naive, we spend most of our time chasing dreams... Hoping that time could go faster, so that our dreams would come true sooner ... 

As we grow older, and our dreams had finally come true ... We wish for something that is even greater ... Chasing back time ...