the real proposal

The first and second surprise of ‘The Real Proposal 0909am, 090909’ and the third surprise where ‘The Real Proposal @ Taj Corner Restaurant 0909pm, 090909’ took place at my mamak slaps me right on my face and wake me up in my dreamy world. I tot i’s long off for 2 years plus, being low profile by just sitting at my mamak without make up everyday, living a simple life that i wanted with the person i wanted.

In this year, Year 2009, i only had a few close friends. Better name it out now … Ken, My Little Princess, Crayven, Joanne, Nelson, My one n only partner Jess Chua, Gary. Well, i guess that’s all that state on my lists of close friends or whom i call – my friends. Not to say that the rest are not, just that if there’s any chance of me blowing my top off n talking to myself, one of them will definitely be there. And that means alot to me. Coz i choose my friend wisely now. If u had been following my blog, i guess you know why.

Well, it had been a long time since i open up myself talking to you, my new friends, beautiful people and strangers in this room who might know me better than others who met me in real, coz what i wrote will only be understood by people who had a past … beautiful people who live their lifebearing burdens and responsibilities and never give up trying, searching and looking for more…

Many people, almost everyone told me that i was the luckiest girl in the whole world, to have such a perfect man. Or some, told me that my husband is the luckiest person on earth to have me. Well, all i can say, and will say, and should say, is, thank you.

Although i always write in my blog that ‘ i guess i am a lucky girl ’ but to tell u frankly, i don’t fully agree on that. I rather say ‘ Each and every single thing that people adore in my life was NEVER given by anyone else besides my life – which is given by my mother. ’ For instants, my guts of striving came from my decision to stop studying to be with my first love. Which causes my mum to throw me out of the house as i were once a top student myself. In regardless of all, i strived for what others tot i couldn’t do. I achieve what i wanted starting from the age of 18. Did i ever regret that i stopped studying to pursue for professionals and ended up being just another girl who finished her Form 5? Yes, and No. All i wanna say here is that, i pay and gain for each decision i made. I gain, i am thankful, to the people who wanted to see me fail. I paid, for a life lesson that i couldn’t turn back time, to be who i dreamt to be. But also, i exchanged both credit and debit, balancing it by being someone else i never thought i would ended up being – A girl with an ego as huge as my fake boobs ( that’s what u call), a girl who decide what is best for herself, and only listen to advice, but never let anyone else make decisions for me no more… A girl who dare to love, and dare to let it all go in just a sec.

If we don’t change, we don’t grow. If we don’t grow, we aren’t really living. So i guess what you see now is a product of how my life had treated me, and moulded me into - Me. Choose one from the below of what others love to say, and always say about me :

1.   A not so simple girl who’re materialistic and only loves the money

2   .A smart girl who get what she wants because she ain’t stupid

3.   A bitch who love to show off and only lives on her some guys money

4.   A career woman who dare to stand up for what she thinks was right, and knows what she wants

5.   Some kinda girl ~ Cool ~

6.   Just some chicks with boobs, and fake stuffs all over her body, nothing special

7.   She’s hot !

It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. We must be hatched or go bad. So i guess i am just living my life like everyone else around me … i am just living my life just like you do … Just that we have different perspectives and different attitude towards life that makes what we are now, different from one another.

There can be no equality or opportunity if men and women and children be not shielded in their lives from the consequences of great industrial and social processes which they cannot alter, control, or singly cope with. But when one is not living in one’s shoes, you will never experience and understand what the other is really going through… So this is what all my blog is about.

What is the difference between someone who achieves their goals consistently and those who spend their lives and careers merely envying or cursing others? The extra mile. What i get today, is what i’ve sacrificed, good enough to get me what i wanted, to happen at the right time, falling at the right place. Things that i planned, things that i didn’t plan which surprised me, i call it - bonus. My life, my proposal, my wedding, my everything in between, besides my death, i am truly grateful and thankful. But after the proposal, i realised that i am facing something new, something i never experienced before, and it is not really something i should be happy of. I am struggling inside myself. Dont misunderstood what i am trying to say, i am just trapped in between. In one hand, it is my personal life which i amperfectly happy with. But in the other hand, it changes my personal life, my career’s direction, and it simply, almost meant, everything…

Am i happy ? Yes,and No. I am just 24, there’s so much more that i wanted to do that i haven’t complete striving. I am currently having 40% of what i wanted at my age. I always wanted more, and i always gets more. People can say what they want, but they will never know how much i want, and i can get. When the whole world sets their eyes on my proposal, they thought my man gave me everything i have, which is the main reason why i wasn’t really happy for the things that i was supposed to be happy for. But i am thankful.

So said.

My man never gave me money. I pay for all my own bills, my own living, my life. Rich is debatable. But it doesn’t mean that if a girl has some results, everything was given by her man. I hate that so much. But i also understand why everyone kept thinking that way. Coz we will always be human. And human never wanna accept what they always refuse to accept – the truth ! Suck loh ! Leng Yein, gulp it in ! Leng Yein gulp it in !

I was with my ex back then, who are commented by others, not compatible with me. From career to gaps and capability. But when things took turn from black to white, my man now is totally of different from my ex, they said it isn’t fair. Why do i always get things others wanted, but i am just a bitch ?

Let me tell u what. Do u think even if ur bf is rich, he’ll just proposed to u tru billboards and flashes it on newspapers and bathing u with luxurious things and flashing diamond as huge as ur thumb ? Dont be STUPID ! Wake up. That this, if u r a man with capabilities, money and all the bestest things in the world, will u marry a girl, doing all the above, proposing in the eyes of the world, to a girl who’re nothing but a gold digger, and nothing much more to elaborate on. Then you are stupid. And u will never be what u call – a rich man. Coz u aren’t smart enough to earn your first bucket of gold. And so said, u will never be able to pay for a single proposal, and what more for the upcoming wedding and so on.

So u think that a ‘not-so-simple’ girl can make a mature man do things beyond what others will do. You are right, and u are wrong. They are reasons behind things, reasons only two person in love could possibly see, know, and understand. My love life back then, well kept in my heart all the time, away from public’s attention. There’s only few reasons for that. First, because it is my private life, not a job, not my bags, not assets. Secondly, to avoid complications, if u r smart enough to understand what i am trying to say. Third, because i don’t like my achievements to be credited to my man. Because he aint the one giving me all this. It is always, and will always be, me myself and i.

Do u think i chose my man because he has quality materials in life ? You are totally wrong. Among all, i only choose what i knew was the best man for me. He has a high quality in his personality. I don’t wish to elaborate on that much. I choose a man who wants a simple life of forever happiness, not a man with cars that will be sold half of the price in months to come. I don’t need an ATM machine when i am already one. Get it ?

So u think all the luxurious things a girls can have has to come from man. What makes u think that a woman cant get what she wants all by herself ? We women marry a man, because YOU wanted to be with us. So it’s fair. But now I have come to believe that the whole world is an enigma, a harmless enigma that is made terrible by our own mad attempt to interpret it as though it had an underlying truth. So i do not want to touch on this in details. Those who’re my friend will understand my reasons for writing this blog. I love my husband, and he loves me too. We love each other as much, and we will do anything to make everything perfect for each other.

So said. I hope that this topic will not be discussed upon blogs, comments, in Friendster, Facebook or any chat rooms. I believe that one who doesn’t bless others wont be blessed. I alwaysleave a beautiful comment before i sign off. And i hope all of you who’re in this room, all the beautifull people around the world can do the same. Just bless, and not discuss and make ur own assumption.

Love, without expectation. And you will be loved, just the way you wanted it to be. Learn to give, and never stop giving. Only by then, you will be loved whole heartly by ur man. And stop guessing. My man is no doubt what you guessed and said – to be the sweetest man in the world … I agree. But may i have a say in this, in a more appropriate way – he is ‘The One’, not just anyone. He is – my man. And i am proud of him.

So wish well, and give me a break. Coz ur words are causing me nuts and given me much unhappiness. But i am almost getting over it now. It is the matter of my own pride, for being just who i am, not who made me what i am. So said. Understood. I have my life, so do you.

Well, i guess i will stop here now. May the ending of Year 2009 of yours be blessed with much love and greatest of things. I hereby wishing all of you love, and may u be blessed with the most beautiful things in the world, and may all your dreams come true …

Love Always ,

Leng Yein

relationship is like .,.. a dead shark

A relationship, I think, is like a shark, you know? It has to constantly move forward or it dies. And I think what we got on our hands is a dead shark ~ Hah ~

Have you ever been in love n it doesn’t work out? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defences, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. This is as much as love can get – a broken love.

Some say that there is fairy tale in life. But some say there is none. Well, i agree with both. A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one. In the end of the day, it is up to us to paint the beautiful picture that we had in our dreams… When our man strayed too far out, it is us to get them back, or let them out. Never underestimate how great n powerful a woman can be. Just look at ur mom. She gave u a life ~

Women marry men hoping they will change. Men marry women hoping they will not. So each is inevitably disappointed. Men have hitherto treated women like birds which have strayed down to them from the heights; as something more delicate, more fragile, more savage, stranger, sweeter, soulful - but as something which has to be caged up so that it shall not fly away. It is because of insecureness that they have, the feeling of losing, the feeling of lost control, taking control…

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you…. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.’ I found mine, and i wish that u too, found yours.

Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more. Someone asked me why women don’t gamble as much as men do, and I gave the commonsensical reply that we don’t have as much money. That was a true and incomplete answer. In fact, women’s total instinct for gambling is satisfied by marriage. By then, ‘WHY?’ is not the question. There are four questions of value in life… What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love. Agree? Not wealth , not Louis Vuitton, Chanel, Versace, nor Gucci, Prada… When the girls longed for branded n luxury lifestyle, even if they got it, and then u place the luxury beside the man they really love, they will go back to basic with their man. With no make-up, no explanation, just love…

All love shifts and changes. I don’t know if you can be wholeheartedly in love all the time. It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them. Funny how love turn around n make things happen just the way it is. Love has d power to change a fixed man. True love always makes a man better, no matter what woman inspires it. It always does. The reflection of each person lies 50% on how their partner’s value weight. So if u see someone behaving somewhat ‘B’, their partner may need to bear half of d blame. So sad ~

I think that between men and women there is no friendship possible. There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no friendship. At first i disagree, then when i happen to think it all over again, it is so true. It’s either they have the value we’re looking for, they have something we want or we adore, they can help us, they can calm us down n make us feel better, or they can be there for us when we needed someone around… we adore … and we need them around us …

Take Beyonce Knowles’s ‘If I Were A Boy’’s video clip for example - Why is it that men are permitted to be obsessed about their work (n other women), but women are only permitted to be obsessed about their man? Hmm … that’s a good clip which reflects on everyday’s love ~ I don’t know whether u’ll do that to ur man, but man or woman, we’re all d same. Seen n heard too much don’t u think. Well, we should learn to be thankful , appreciative, n cherish when we still have it. When love’s gone, we can only hope for a new one… the past are far bygone.

Men say they love independence in a woman, but they don’t waste a second demolishing it brick by brick. Especially those women who has their strong financial stability n career. The relationship is harder to handle. When love became a comparison, the feeling of challenged n imbalance between two will break the love u had. My first relationship lasted for years but didn’t work out because the man i love couldn’t handle the stress i’d caused. My career, my lifestyle. Though we were so in love, the second i got my feet into business n the society, it changes everything n tore us apart. We started to see a big difference in our income n stability. Our needs for different lifestyle, different things. My crave for lushness n pleasure overshadowed my love for him. I chose to have a lavish life than to stay by my man n not striving forward.

Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they’re trying to find someone who’s going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, a place that you and the other person can take. Chances are that people walked through the same path, only later to find that they ended up in a different direction. Opportunity knocks for every man, but you have to give a woman a ring. And after the ring is given, another door opens. More challenged, more committed, more problems … more love … Or maybe, does the ring fits the woman’s finger ? Or maybe, does ur ring has the C’s …

You can’t stop loving or wanting to love because when its right, it’s the best thing in the world. When you’re in a relationship and it’s good, even if nothing else in your life is right, you feel like your whole world is complete. Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable, u’re ready for love.

The quality of your life is the quality of your relationships. How u’ll live through life and how u’re going to end it rely on how much love u had n gave. People are dying each day, most of them were loved n remembered, some of them were not. If u know u r going to die today, what r u going to do? Work? Get some branded bags? Go on vacation alone? Hug a bear? Adopt a pet?

Don’t settle for a relationship that won’t let you be yourself. U will suffer later. And then only u realised that u’ve gotten a few years older… In real love you want the other person’s good. In romantic love you want the other person. Which one r u ? When we’re incomplete, we’re always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we’re still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on–series polygamy–until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfilment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.

If our relationship is like a rose, how long it lasts, no one will actually know. Love can erase all the awful past. And love can be yours, but you’ll only realise in the end… To feel that love, it sometimes makes you sigh… But to have it to leave, some of you would rather die. A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person… I hereby hope that you’ve found that special rose, and that you love and care for the one you’ve chose…

Which is right and what is wrong … I hope u have the answer deep down at the bottom of your heart … Well 2009 , i wish u love for eternity …

Love Always … Leng Yein

they say we do it but men does it too

Correct me if I’m wrong, but hasn’t the fine line between sanity and madness gotten finer ? There’s war going on at the other part of d world where ppl were dying everyday but there are more war going on everyday around our lives made by our friends and unknown people around us… It’s not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over…

Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you had thought could never be yours. Heck what others say about u. Hey, at least no one is talking about them ? But they are talking about u ~ U r a subject, how cool can it be ? The paradox of an informed society is that over a period of time, it is susceptible to bias towards the same sources that project powerful information. Let them do it while u r too busy shopping ~ Some people just love to spend their free times talking about other people being a not-so-similar kinda FMs n RADIOs n Walkie Talkies~

Learn to laugh it over when u heard things that others say about you. Remember, nobody can hurt you without your permission. If u don’t like them, then don’t grant them one ! Through humour, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.

I learn to find that not only women ticked backstabbing n gossiping, men does it too ~ Leave them , never degrades your argument. Better be the main role than being the audience who only heard what’s being told n never watched the actual ‘thingy ting ting’. Who knows, if ur role is great, u might be nominated ~ Haha ~

Judging a person after d first meeting is like assuming tat ur neighbour will only wear red, because tat is what you saw her in, the first time. Just imagine if everyone in this world started judging everyone else by their own standards. It would be like a blind person telling everyone else that the world is a dark place. Ppl change all the time. Be careful of who u chose to trust ~

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, ‘What! You too? I thought I was the only one?’…and then u share, u help, u give, u listen, u laugh… Until one day, they take away their love from u… and they say everything about u differently… It is dangerous to play the sincere game without defence unless you are also stupid. Friendship is always born with love, but it does not always die with it. Moral indignation happens when there is some slight of jealousy in a halo. And when jealousy feeds upon suspicion, it turns into fury or it ends as soon as we pass from suspicion to certainty…and there comes hatred ~

Learn to accept that not everyone likes the things u do. There’s a saying - A successful person makes a habit of doing what the failing person doesn’t like to do. So stick to what u love, stick to the things u do ~ And let the others say what they wanna say. Besides, how many of them can actually do the things u do ? They can’t, that’s why they wanna talk about u. They can’t do the things u do n they can’t have the things u have… therefore they can only talk about u n hope that our lives will be miserable~ Blah ~ People who are capable wouldn’t have time gossiping about what others do, what they have, this n that, so n so. They are too busy doing their own things, taking their own sweet time while others r talking. Those who talk alot, in their mind, they know that words are powerful. But little did they know that only if words are put into actions ~ Duh ! But it is good coz when they put too much of it together, they made us - A highlighted story to tell… and by then we’ve made our mark ~How easy is that ~

For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it. So no matter what others do… there’ll be a place for everyone to belong … u just have to find that right place ~ I’ve foundmine … and im thankful that they’re always there for me as i will be for them …

I believe the single most significant decision I can make on a day-to-day basis is my choice of attitude. It is more important than my past, my education, my bankroll, my successes or failures, fame or pain, what other people think of me or say about me, my circumstances, or my position. Attitude keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitudes are right, there is no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me. Hey, in the end of the day, who cares if u r in deep shit anyway ?

If you believe that feeling bad or worrying long enough will change a past or future event, then you are residing on another planet with a different reality system. And only minority stays in there. They never move. And when they did, they’re far away left behind. So, do u wanna be one of them ?

There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle. I chose both and play around with it. I work very hard n believe that there’s no miracle given to me; and when i splurge, i believe that it is a miracle given. Ya, i guess that’s how i balance my life, hmm …

I’ve met ppl , strangers who came up to me being really friendly n nice… and they ended up being my friend. But i’d never came across any strangers who came up to me being really nasty n ended up being my enemy. Hmm…people who dislike me only talks behind me, never in front. Pity them that they don’t have the guts to. Just like one who never dare to look into the mirror just to see the reality that they have the courage to talk but not to face. Some took time to create fake accounts just to drop me some nasty comments, hmm… but they nvr surface ~ Well, thank u for ur time ~ I love u ~ Muah ~

To all the girls who’ve lived your life as happy as ever but unlucky enough to have friends who never stop trying to bring u down … It is better to have a permanent income than to ‘only be able’ to tell fascinating stories about people to others~ They are not qualified enough to be a story teller as they are classified ‘differently’. And they don’t have the blings, consequently they cant make the stories they tell into movies. Short say, they get no where. So, just let them be. Shallow people ~

Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you … Hate me … and i Love U ~ Muah ~

Love Always … Leng Yein

ppl i wana thank

Kick starting a better *silent* or worst year . Flashing back at those new faces , old faces , familiar faces , and always there – the “wish-not-to-see-them-again faces” ~! Haha ~! God just love us so much sometimes ya ~ Well dear friends , are you happier now or the other way round ? Why ? Plan to make it a brighter one ahead ? You should , you know ? Coz 2007 will be over soon before u even realized it . Just like how 2006 had left us in a glimpse of light *sight* one year by gone … More backstabbers if ur life seemed to be better in their point of view , more friends if u shine among others , more tasks if u r more capable than the rest , more responsibility coz we’re growing up , more cash cash cash coz we worked harder than before , less steps to succeed our dreams n reach our goal , less worries coz we’ve seen more than before , happier coz we don’t care about tiny things happening around us , happier coz we’re a better n stronger person now than before , sad because time ticks away so fast that we cant be able to grab hold every second n spend it worthwhile , sad coz we’d lost our chance due to our mistake , but no matter what’s the outcome , WE are better now … coz we learn from our days … from time to time …
This year , I wish all of you nothing but striking the very best of yourself and achieving all the tough tasks n succumb hard times and downs , ending year 2007 with tears touches ur heart … voice within telling urself that there’s nothing to worry about now , coz you are stronger … I’ll be here in the corner of the world , praying for ur safety n strength alongside u and overcome all the impossible making everything possible … I believe in you … all of you , coz u r my FRIEND …
The sweet ones who’re walking down a rough path in their relationship , have faith in YOUR love … let it lead the way . If it had to end someday , let all of us just pray that the SOMEDAY will come much later … Give a chance to both souls having to pass the test of love … People who ended their relationship recently , pick urself up again , fill those missing pieces by knowing what have u done and not in the past that leads to where u’re standing now and don’t repeat the mistake again in the future … People who felt like it’s time to start a new relationship anytime from now , I’ll ask cupid to aim accurately and shoot ok ? May all the best of luck be with all of you in this very fresh new year of 2007
Im more focused n clear on what I want now . And im very happy coz I have had you people walking alongside me for every step I take … all of you have been so supportive n lovely to me . Thousands of thanks n kisses showered n dedicated specially to YOU , humbly from no other than this lady , me … I know that the economy will be slowing down n reach quite a peak this year but I would like to wish all of u never-the-less than all the best in everything you do and will be very very very lucky ~! Be patient and your time will come to you very soon . Hey , best things always come when u least expected it to ~! Remember this , from me ok ? Girls , I’d moved in to my new condo . If u’d like to join me for a swim in the pool kindly let me know ok ? Then we can go makan makan =)
Kicking start 07 , there’s few people that I would like to thank apart from all my lovely friends who stood by me side-by-side all the time . To these people , I hereby dedicate my words to you …
My dearest Lou Poh Zai a.k.a Apple a.k.a Waiwai a.k.a Lim Kah Hui a.k.a Karena a.k.a My Manager ( fui yoh ~! )
There’s always something about pieces . Soft and sensitive yet wise n smart . Thanks for all your love , your trust , your care , your surprises and your understanding . No matter where I am , I know that I still have someone whom I can count on . Hey , 24-7 on call ain’t an easy task weih ~ My life that im going through now really proves that u’d put in alot of effort n it make a different , a lot sometimes . Sometimes I even wonder , why do we always ended up in Redbox one ? Aiyah *laugh* Eh lou poh u know or not , y we so ‘so hai ‘ one ? Aiyer … now only I know why god create u n me , to wrack the world man ~! We’re fated together forever de ~ Hahaha , u cannot runaway from me ( ngiak ngiak ngiak ) Wei , why we always laugh non stop when we’re together one , weih ah , why ah ? U begin to love ur job eih , wei , fast lah ~ yes yes ~ hehehe ( u guys wont understand what we’re writing coz haha ~ its our SH language ) She’s a very very good singer eih , come come text her n she’ll ended up with u in redbox (waiseh ~! ) yes , I’ll probably be there with u too … we’re unseparatable ~! WUahahahaha ~ Eih , y u always come my house n break my things one ? U cannot find the hole ? Nah , there lah ~ Hahaha ~ My oh my , my dearest lou poh , u’re the best n the sweetest . From the day we came down to kl together n start over our life , hugging together in Petaling street crying ( wah sai ) Aih , shit , u still remember anot ? Until the day we go shopping here n there , having so many same same things , having so many same same stories , same same underwear ( WAH ) , same same experience ( WHAT THE DUT ~! ) , hahaha , always laugh at ourselves , eh nonono , always laugh at yourself ( Wuahaha ) ok lah , I laugh u u laugh me ok ( An Yong Eh Sai Ah ? ) Actually she’s beside me when im half way writing this paragraph of her …But I wanna tell you ( Eh , dun finish my sugus lah weih , what am I suppose to eat later ? ) ok , continue , I wanna tell you ( Yes , Hai Yan ) that u’re the bestestestestestestestestestest ( Ashma , chiak lat ) friend ( Yes , Lou Poh Dai Yan ) I’d ever have =~~~~~~~~~~~( ( Damn Kam Thung ) Muah Muah Muah
My Beloved Geng ( Brian , William , Jesus , Leslie , Calvin , Shaun , Chee Yang , Andy , Tiffany )
Thanks for all your time , effort , forgiveness n understanding . You guys always believed in me in all the ways n everything I do . Helped n accompanied me along the way down my path . Without me noticing it has been a pretty cool 5 months now , although to be precise just for 4 months , this one month of silence changed a lot of things , both ways . It’s sad how it became but some things are eternal … The trust n believe I had in u guys are superb . No matter what’s the outcome , the same saying still goes - Be careful ~! u guys are dear . Not worth to be outta sight , get what I mean ~ You’re the best guy group I’d ever had =) Those party , the gathering , the surprises , Hey , Calvin ! I still remember the puzzle leh ~! And Brian , now im very friendly to the phone already =) but Victoria still remain untouched … The tortoise I duno u chuck where already . William , u’re the man ! Go Go Go ~! God bless u that u’ll get everything u want very very soon . Jesus , Shh … will come one , very fast very fast , u boleh ~ haha ~! Leslie , the caretaker … with u around , everyone’ll be just perfectly fine =) Shaun , u’re always the quiet quiet boy so sweet sweet de ha ~ good good , mui mui zai like like =) U’re a good person in heart … Chee Yang , wei once u touch forever ARE ONE ah , hahaha , cham loh ~ how how ? Tiffany , im very happy seeing u back in line smiling already . Ema is taking care of u hah ~ Must take care of her for me also n i know u already did =) U’re one amazing girl u know that . SKL , our mark mark yah ~ Andy , now kaya already , good good , one day must belanja me eat … No matter how fast time flies , how many things happened , u’re the first n ever group of guys that i am so comfortable being with … everything that u guys have done meant so much to me n will be kept in my heart forever … our stories , unbelievablely crazy ~ Wuahahaha . Dont worry , secrets will be kept , can still kau lui one , no prob , we go kau together gether !

( All Guys Especially : Nic , Jefferson , Colin , Darren , Jeffrey , Brandon )
( All Girls Especially : Lou Poh , Princess , Vivian , Ainsley , Angie ) And to all my dearest friends who knows me ,
Thanks for believing me in every way n everything that i do … All the ups n downs , few of YOU r there for me , standing , eh no , sitting side by side in a big big group teman-ing me in mamaks ( aiyah ) Hehe , n always end up mamak again … ( aisheh ) Haha ~ Sorry lah , wait until IT’S opened then i treat u guys a free meal k ? Muahahaha ( ding dong ! ) Thanks for being a one stop 7-11 station for me , it helps preventing me from going to the cuckoo bird stage =) Aih , what to do … life pranks alot ~ U know i know lah … Whenever i need ambulance u guys will carry ur thongs n rush to me , wah lau eh , so kam thung * sob sob* Aih , such a ma fan also u can stand , pui fuk pui fuk ~ (sleng sleng) Yo maN ! i lap u mAn ~ You know whAt im sAy’in ~ haha ~ Really , from the bottom of mAh hArt , really really thank you for being there … really really thank you <– really REALLY de ~ Wanna say u people ah , long long story loh . Flooding ur phone with my bla bla bla lah u also didn’t report flood at ur place to police , didn’t reply ur sms summore u keep sending then i reply weeks later also u not angry ( if me i give up <– i must learn from u weih Kam Ba Teh ) , Helping me get ticket lah , book place lah , accompany me go buy stuff lah ( n choose for me somemore fui yoh ! <– keng weih ) , my cow drop into my toilet bowl also u come to rescue lah ~ ( from seremban to kl also boleh WAHHHH ) FU la Mak very yi hei Ha , i like i like ( nod nod nod ) Good Good , my good good Heng Dai Ah ~ Mmm , Mmm , i will remember this Heng Dai one ~ Go ur place makan ALL free ( calculator dut dut dut one year i can save hmm … alot also weih , can buy kancil ) Always worry that i stay home become sot sot n try to bring me go sedut some poluted air outside ( good heng dai ) tap tap chest , Hou Yeh , i Salute kao kao , very very impress , proven still got good man outside for my girlfriends ~ ( girls , go grab grab grab ) i dun charge u introduction fee one .
Thanks for checking up on me although sometimes i didn’t reply but u never disconnect our line =) It’s my bad n im sorry , but it doesn’t mean that i ignore or stopped everything there . I remember u DID contact me , i do =) No matter how long we didn’t contact each other , u still call or sms to make sure that im still in one piece . You girls are darlingZ ~ Muah Muah Muah ~ I can save a kontena of SKll seing ur warm warm sms =) ( close eyes eyes n feel the love ) Wah , felt like going naked weih ~ Muah , u girls are bling bling u know that =) The world shine coz of you =) YOU know who u are … thanks for everything =)
To all the coming-soon friend of mine ,
Thanks for taking your time messaging me telling what ppl told u or what u’ve heard from ppl about me . Im truly grateful for everything that u’ve done. Coz from no where , u have faith in me … u r my precious friend =) I believe that no matter how bad it seemed to be somehow u believe in urself , n each second that u took to keep in touch with me means alot … and each n everyone of u are sincere … and for that sincerity , i humblely thank u here … now …
Love ,
Leng Yein
ps :
I notice alot of u switched ur page to secretive mode , hmm … good good …
My first friend acc had been suspended coz someone took over it , aih … to let u girls know how much i love u , i actually spent more than 24 hours paste n cut n create this new Friends getaround account for US =)
add up dears ~
mslengyein@yahoo.com …… ur pic might be in =) hehe

What i learn in a year

Its the end of my new life,new environment,new line,new friends,new home,new challenges,great old 2006 ~! A soon to come new life,new challenges,new friends,new problems … see , one thing about life is,it’s like a donut, like i always tells my frens,it goes around…
U either hate it,or the other way round,like it,but when u happen to understand it,u gonna face it regardless of u liking or hating it.Sad or happy,up or down,its totally up to u urself.there’s never a need to regret,put it this way to feel better,u learn from what u call mistakes.Hey,we’re young eh,no?then y r u still playing friendster? See ?
2006 leaves a great impact n experiences in my life,i’ll never forget this year … everything changes,my life,my job,my views… but im happy tat for everything that had happen in such sudden,i now ended up having my own life here - right in the center of KL . im happy , n i want all of u to be happy too …
Its been months since i last wrote my blog , im really thankful whenever i saw messages regarding my bloggging . Im aint famous blogger , but thanks to YOU , who took ur time reading each n every letter that i type .
Met alot of girls n left them my number , telling me problems from boyfriends to family to everything , surgery , medication , lifestyle … its good to gather together n talk , i love talking … i learn alot from them , reminding myself of my own problems , my past experience , n never forgets how it became n changed things all over , how good n bad times r … ppl always ask me to forget the past, but im like a rock i never tolerate this advice . coz i love to remember every single details so tat i’ll learn from it n carry a better view walking down my path ….
Im happy tat i’ve met almost every new fren of mine n find them good ppl . Back in my hometown , most of the ppl who knows me (by name) coz i grew up there love to backstab alot , try to ask ur frens in kuantan of me , u’ll know what i mean . as though they’re my twins ,, they even can tell u things about me which even me myself doesnt know that . haha ~ they are so cute , i wonder if the circus would love to hire them … clown ~! but all my new frens here , yes ‘YOU’ ~! they are so sincere , everyone is so humble , so down to earth , so patient . And one very important quality , they are very understanding . I love people who respects others …. n i find alot of people in town who actually cares for others , the elderly , the needy , the down ones with problems …
I’ve met different walks of life n i notice a very big difference n i simplified all of them n class them into 2 kinds . The End & The Forever .
THE END :
People who try to hard to impress me saying how rich how famous how many ppl call them how many ppl like them what present or message they get from girls how busy they are how high class they are how successful they are how knowledgeble they are how good they are how kind they are how many house they have what car they drive how many famous ppl they know how big their house r how fast they drift their carcar how cheap this girl is how expensive his watch is when they r gonna get married how many choices of girls they have how many annoying girls texting them how sweet they are to their Ex’s when did they last made out when did he last text or call a girl n when did i actually tell u im interested in all of these above ? Come on , u think by telling me how cheap this girl is texting u impresses me ? Chill out man , why on earth is that girl KEEP texting u IF u didnt text her some sweet things beforehand . u think we’re stupid ? Respect the girls man , u know what im saying ? If i keep telling me the girls r annoying , please remind urself that i’ll not text u coz u might show this to other girls telling them the same thing too . Turn it around , ur gf doesnt want the cute guy overthere to know she’s attached.U text her saying u miss ur baby so much,she show ur sms to the cute guy,u’re dumbo,u dont know.How’s that?Sweet ? This is what u r doing lah brother ~ Im a pain in ur butt yes surely i agree , but its an advice , things r going around babe , one day it’ll U-turn n hit u baqck right in front of ur pretty face SMACK!!!
THE FOREVER :
U r a listener n a talker , u know when to stop when to pull out a tissue when to get other a ketchup when to get the bill when to stop n look whether there’s car coming from right or left when is the time to stop texting the girls when is the time to call up n ask whether we’re doing fine when is the best time to cheer us up when is the time to say u r not free coz u have to go n get a christmas card for us when is the time u finish fixing ur carcar n fetch us for mamak when is ur girlfriend coming back n we’ll go swimming together how many true friends u have in a group how many days u didnt call ur mum n ask how she is how many hours u slept how free u r now n how helpful u can be how patient u r and above all , just do everything that u SHOULD do, we’ll do the rest from there … thanks for everything
The fact of THE W’s :
THE FOREVER - Where(the right place), When(the right time), hoW(the right way), What(the right thing), Who(the right click)
THE END - those smart ones who goes W the way they thought it is WE(tat’s never we until WE say it),WANT(what about what We want?),WOMEN(WE r not ur toy),bmW(a kancil can get me to the same destination too),Wisky & Wine (come on la brother,this is never a good excuse to get naughty),Whistle(i pity ur mum coz her baby doesnt know how to respect women),WHY(simple , because WE dont like u), WOW(love the tits? Want me to smack that on ur face till u choke n die,i’ll b likely to do that if ensure that u’ll really die after i do it,my pleasure)
Lessons learned in year 2006 n will b brought forward to year 2007 :
Independant - When u lost everything,u left YOURSELF to fill up missing pieces
Cherish - Heartbreak if THEY never cherish u,its fine,dont b the same like THEM,Do it differently
Respect - Shut up,think,salute,learn n smile,there’s always a lesson to b learn from that someone
Positive - There’s always 2 sides,black n white.Hey,ur life will not b Grey forever lah ~ Think PINK ?
Grateful - Never forget ppl who helped u,even a small favour,be thankful,they’re LITTLE BABY GOD
Appreciate - Ppl dont owe u nothing to lend a hand eh ? So ?
Remember - Ppl who pins u to death or carry u up.Never forgive urself for forgetting either one of them
Care-Less - Their parents didnt educate them the right way,but urs did.So kindly forgive their stupidity
Care-More - Sometimes somethings might even mean nothing at all to u,but it might be so much to them
Step Out - Step aside,its like a watching a movie,scan the details.Step back in.Everything’ll b clear now
Switch - Dont understand why r things going like this?Imagine u r the other party,this way,u’ll know why
Smile - It doesnt cost u a cent,but it has the power to open up the world to u
Time - Every second is precious,Grab every possibilities n live life to the fullest.u cant go back again
Moody - Laugh when u r happy,Cry when u r sad.Hey,u have a heart,rite? U wont get summoned
Learn - U dont have to make mistakes to learn,take others’ mistakes as ur lessons in life,safer this way
Give - A small favour might turned out to b ur future staircase or at least , a ladder
Talk - If u cant find a nice thing to say about someone,dont say anything…rumours starts here !
People - Catagorize them.Give priority to the special ones or they’ll not b special anymore
Think - Dont listen to what majority says.Sit,calm,quiet,feel,relax,recall n do the math
Party - Loose weight,sleeves,depths,length but never loose urself.Know what u r doing.Respect urself
Test - Analyse all data.Listen.No one can get pass ur lie-detection program
Truth - Trust only what u’ve experienced,not what u heard/saw.Things might not b the way it seemed 2b
Help - U’re not the cupid,stop involving urself in other couples problem.Wanna break up,break la~!
Daring - If u dare to do it,dare to admit it. If not, dont do it lah ~
Right / Wrong - There’s never an answer to this.Look n check at all sides all the time.Chill man ~
Bad girls - U dont need them!Lagi dun need to cry n b sad.Karma does exists
Bad boys - When u r rich but old n dying,i’ll b praying for u that u have a good nurse by ur hospital bed =)
Good girls - They have alot to learn from each other,coloring our life n shines the way through
Good guys - I learn alot from them the reason behind the war of opposite sex,n debate ! Haha
Shhh - If that’s ur darkest secret n u duwan anyone to know,dont tell anyone,dont blame others when it leaks,coz u r the one who let it out in the first place
Well , i guess this would probably be my last blog for this year now coz im flying off again.To every beautiful people in this room,may all your best wishes come true n may all the best things in life are shared … May all the days ahead comes with good chances n changes n may all of you stays pink of health all the time ~!

darkest secret ...

Simple , if u wan2 to do something , no one can force u coz it is ur choice in the end , but if u think the choice that u made will cheate havoc or gossips that u can handle , do not do it then and regret later … i live my own life , didnt hurt urs … coz like it or not it is my life , not yours … i wont reveal ur secrets , only mine which i dont actually agree on these are consider secrets as i dont have any . Whatever u hear about below was never secrets , if u heard about it , it MUST HAVE started it because i told YOU … and YOU tell ppl , and yada yada yada … Anyway , it is my right , u cant sue me for telling ppl what my life was all about … and u know why am i telling , coz YOU ask & this is ur answer …
For the 3 year plus in friendster , I’ve received a lot of questions regarding my business & my personal life . I don’t want to repeat things over and over again so im gonna post this up & answer the same question . I have nothing to hide from u as this is not bout breaking the laws , I have nothing to lose coz if u dont like what i did which doesnt hurt u , it is ur life , ur choice , and i am at no right to brainwash u … if I dare to do it , I dare to admit it . If I say yes , it is a Yes . And if I said no , it’s is certainly a No .
My Businesses :
I wont elaborate on this. Im not that kinda person who goes everywhere telling ppl as though im an entrepreneur … aiyoh , Beh Tahan Nia. Hello , I am just trying to have a life here. Stop questioning me,I hate it ok. If u don’t know how I made it then it simply proves that u r not a sincere friend coz people who knows me, know - my life suck ~ but in a way , sincere friends like YOU popped up & helped me along the way … and ended up like this … Yes, everything that i am today … exist because of YOU (only for sincere ppl la ) … -end-
Ps : All of u r invited to my mamak’s opening around September … if u’d already added me up, kindly keep an eye on the bulletins … Everyone is invited , it’ll be fun ~
Plastic Surgery :
Everyone knows that I did boob lifting , nose job & dimple surgery . Why ? Coz whenever they say ‘ hey I wish I have that boob ‘ and I’ll reply ‘ cheh , it’s fake one ‘ . Girls , even Guys , if u r my real life friend u know lah … till everyone around me tells me ‘ wei , dont go around telling ppl lah’ then i will tell them ‘ aiyoh , if i dont wanna answer them, they think im lansi . If i answer them , they’ll ask me the price coz they wanna do also’ … so , if u r so interested in knowing , why cant i tell . think . but when i tell , u help me free-advertising around , i wanna thank u coz u make me wanna start a plastic surgery one-stop station . HaHaHa ~
Ok , skip skip skip . Plastic surgery is not good for u as it will defect ur body system , u gotta take your own risk . If ur job requires u to do so , let the company pay for you & search for the best & take the lowest risk . Yes , there are still risks … It’s not original so don’t expect it’ll be the same darling .
First, its in my family gene that me & my lil sister have big boobies . So , stop asking why i have big boobs originally even before the lifting … coz I asked my mum so many times & she asked me to ask my grandma so Okay , skip skip skip.
First lessons : Big boobies will sag, yes, because of gravitivity. I don’t like sagging boob so I decide to do it, never because of my profession, fully on my own preference. If u don’t like it, go spend money and do it. Stop complaining. If u like it, message me and I’ll tell u more about it. Mine has no implant , simply just muscles stitching. Second : My nose. Aiyoh , I still can feel my nose la for Christ sake ~ No it wont fall off like Michael Jackson’s lah … tsk tsk tsk … The Process : Just a cut beside & they’ll stuff a bone-like thing in , the surgery – less than 1 hour and I can go shopping oledi. Yes, I witness the whole process coz I requested. Why i did my nose : Originally my nose is doing fine thank you but i am a chinese so i have flat nose lah then I prefer a taller one so i went & get it done loh , simple ~ But it’s my nose not urs so it’s my right and i didn’t offend u coz it’s not tall enough to hide KLCC from ur view la , My GOD ~ . Third : My dimple. Yes , dimple can be done in less than an hour of work. I am not dosed to sleep so this is the second surgery I undergo by witnessing the whole process & trust me it was fun ~ Just by three stitching at each side & the string will break lose by a month & the result - 3 years & yes , if u wanna maintain u gotta pay & do it again . Yes , u gotta pay to do it again. There’s no lifetime warranty on dimple ( if u happen to know one , please tell me Wakakakaka )
Don’t ask me how much all these costs . Prices differs from different countries . Yes , I went all over the world for it . Hey , I love traveling . It’s my money & don’t u dare question how I got it , I work kay … if u think I have rich man all over the place PAU’ing me then *shout* go get urself one ~ Man I tell u , you gotta be crazy . U know why ? We’re a family la ~ YOUR FATHER gave me money hahaha ~! *laugh rolling on the floor* Get that my dear ? Respect yourself , regardless of man or woman they WORK HARD FOR THEIR LIFE . Live with that or die with it ~ How many ladies around u who doesn’t work ends up happy ? And there again , think … U are a woman , we are your kind too … Does it help degrading ur own kind when others doesnt offend u ?
Dinner Jobs :
More than 70% of the models u see in papers , magazines & events deals with it. U get paid having ur dinner with people. Job scope, u attend a dinner with other girls depending on how many girls the agent requires , u sit down & open ur mouth & eat . But u get paid for it . Celebrities & Artists are doing that too for decades . The only thing that is different is the price u’re paid for . No , it is not HOOKING AROUND . Yes , some girls do hook after dinner but that is their choice . Is hooker not a human ? Respect that ok ? If it doesn’t hurt u , u have no right on other’s life . No questions asked , if they wanna do that , who are u to question them ? It is by all mean their life … So , whoever is reading this now , if u r in dinnerjob line too , don’t backstab other girls just to protect urself . It is very selfish . If I ever get to know that u r backstabbing other girls who does it & praising & swearing that u will never do that , come on , it is just a dinner , what r u trying to prove ? u’re so guai guai ah ? If u r not in this line or WAS in this line before how in the world would u KNOW that who or who or who is in ah ? U think we’re stupid & never thought of that point ? Before u even get to ur last sentence the wise ones already degreaded u totally , because u have no respect for others & that u r so selfish … u try to bring others down by draggin urself up , but if u r that good , u dont even need to promote urself … If u just play ur part , no one will tell anyone u’re in it coz 99.9% of the girls who’re doing this never reveals to anyone coz they’re afraid that ppl will have a different perception on them.
I started doing this last year coz something happened and I needed a big sum of cash. To my friends , sorry that I only tells u after I’ve been tru it all but im an aries , I don’t beg ppl . U know me *big big smile* Yes I run my business & I have money but I need not explain further on this issue why do i still need to get extra money by doing this. My friends know the reason behind that . I stopped dinnerjobs long time ago coz I’ve settled all the debts which is not my problem *darn but I have to do it* & carry on my life , yes , back on track straightaway coz I know what im doing & for what purpose .
Girls , if u r new in this line , be mind strong . Know what u r doing & what kind of people are u dealing with . Don’t be innocent , u can only pretend to … Don’t get influenced , it is ur choice. Whatever u do , be clear on ur purpose , remember your reason & never forget ur principle. No mater what ur friends says about u , heck them . come on , r they gonna help u ? If not , then ask them to shut up coz u r left with ur self in the battle . If they still bug u , ask them to help u , i bet they’ll runaway faster than the speed of roadrunner … But if u had a hard time going tru this , write to me k . Jie will help u tru all … I promise ~
People who ONLY understand what dinnerjob is all about after reading this , stop degrading the girls , it is a clean job & I am not ashame of admitting it . Not proudly , but honestly … Sometimes in life , it is hard to understand how tough certain chapter can be … u r alone … not been left by others , but u choose to overcome the obstacles alone … and this … is life … coz when u r down with nothing … u r down with no one … (except YOU , my sincere frens who kept supporting me mentally tru friendster & im grateful … )
Message to all of you …
If u ever looked down on someone just because they are doing something which u think u couldn’t accept , then help them … lead them back on track again . But If u cant , it means that u r not even capable of helping them coz u dunno what to do with them , then do not look down on them … They are fighting for their life all by themselves , just like u and me … have u no heart ? Why if ur place was switched … what would u do ? If u have a solution , then share with them … Get my point ? Think …
Quotes for all of you :
Everyone takes on different tracks walking down their life … Just because they are not in the same road as you doesn’t mean that they are lost …

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economy reccesion

What do u think about the economy recession ? Will it be worst throughout d year ? Or does it not affect u at all ? Or did it change alot of things about u, on u ? For me, it did affect my business, but not me, not my life, im a secure person, i always have my plan B. But it did changed my perception on people, on things, on some matters, on life. It did changed some facts, and some facts changed me forever … The power of accurate observation is frequently called cynicism by those who don’t have it. So this is what i think, it’s personal … so it’s my story, my view…

Through my observation on what happened around me :

·9 out of 10 people become more self centered. They rather live a comfort life leaving others to suffer n bear their burdens.

I’ve seen really good people who suffered so much lately and they’ve turned evil. They ran away with cash - their parent’s money, their company’s money, their friend’s money, anything but their own hard earn money. And they left the other party to suffer for sins. Pity those who lived under the shadow they left behind. And those who suffer, swill definitely suffer longer than the sinner himself. Karma is like a donut, and u r not letting ur finger go. When u take d last bite, all u can taste is the bite on ur own finger. Beware … have a heart ~

·Money overshadowed one’s life and took away most of the things… their conceit, their trust, their dignity, their manhood, their reputation, their friendship, their smile, their happiness, their relationship, their perfection

At the edge of things we often see the true colour of one’s face right in front of our eyes, and their true behavior distinguished the truth. And we shall easily see who’s who, which’s which, and what’s what. Differentiate n calm urself down. This is a good time that u should be composed and accept the disenchantment. Remember, if everyone was what we thought they are, we would’ve been god ~ It is hard to accept one whom we’d always kept close to our hearts, the trust, the respect, the gratitude and the love we have for them and it turned around so quickly. Keep it to urself, need not feel miserable. The second u know that u could handle the situation better, u r keeping up better than they do. Just let them be, be urself too ~

·More con man and scam company, constructing society downfalls n leap of crimes n cheats

Scams were all over the place. Reload machines, water refill machines, retailing scams, frauds, fast money schemes, Oh ~ u just cant finish writing the list down. When there is a threat, everyone started to do things with little contemplation and overlooked the risk that they are taking. But when things surfaced after awhile n matter got out of hand n financial got worst, most of the people will seek for even more dangerous path for fast money. We can only heard n see that much, we couldn’t help in this case but to give advice. But 9 outta 10 wouldn’t want our advise. Coz everybody only believes in themselves n nobody else. Everybody is the same when u r at the boundary of losing. So just watch, and try not to be like them. Read the newspapers, it should help and prevent u from falling into traps and scams, being one of the victim.

·Living in dreamland

When some of the hardworking people are working 2 jobs a day, some others are still sitting there doing nothing n hoping that cash would just fall and rain on them. They refuse to accept the reality, refuse to believe that their life is not going to be as good as it used to be. They still wanna have their the way it was before, spending and enjoying, taking things easy, afraid that people would look down on them once they see the changes in their lifestyle, on their spending. Living in their dream world, refused to accept the truth and move forward n set their feet on the ground, it is pitiful. But it is also a good time to reflect on urself, what u did, why did it happen, and what u should do and prevent it from happening again. Always plan ahead… always have a plan B. And better still, a plan C too.

·The rise of rivalry and condemnation

When one fall, one will automatically be a step above them. This is a time when a huge differences can easily be spotted among two different individuals. Comparison will take place, rivalry come to pass, once an adore can easily turn to abhorrence, envy and jealousy arise among the groups and everyone will start to fight/mouth fight against each other to prove that they are better. Gossips and backstabbing is common. A curser will curse even more just to show their displeasure and annoyance looking at those who are happy. U r either the one who had to save up, or the one who still go on spending~ But either one, no one cares. If ur life is about everything, just remember that their lives too. U r not that important. So save up ur time n do something meaningful other than wasting it on backstabbing others who does well. It only shows that u r going down faster than u think. A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control. Be wise when choosing which side u wanna be.

·Which is more important in d end of the day - Career or Happiness ?

The two most important requirements for major success are: first, being in the right place at the right time, and second, doing something about it. But i do believe that the very purpose of our life is to seek happiness. That is clear. Whether one believes in religion or not, whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we all are seeking something better in life. So, I think, the very motion of our life is towards happiness… When the time is tough, never let ur problems shadows the one that u love. When u lose them, u lost the most important thing that money can never even buy.

·Learn to play by the rules

There’s a case, I have a friend who were a model, so my friends were trying to be a good friend and kept forwarding her jobs but she held her nose so high n told my friend off ‘ Oh, didn’t u know? Im a full time model now, i don’t do cheap jobs and low class events.’ And outta no where, yesterday, she suddenly popped up again n called my friend asking her for any kind of payment job, as long as there is a job. This is a lesson to learn - Be nice to people on your way up because you will meet them on your way down.

·It’s so hard to play good people. So, lets just be below-average~

Some of us had lived our lives long enough to help alot of people. But most of them will never remember us when they’re outta trouble. And will only remember us when they got into trouble again. Lately, i got calls from long lost friends. Out of no where they called to borrow money, to meet me up, to have a chat, but it’s all n all about lending money. This is a good question, even if u have it, will u give it to them ? I used to have a habit of not knowing when to stop and not knowing when to say ‘NO’. But i soon learned that people is not treating us as friends, but they are using us as an ATM, worst – an idiot. I’d borrowed money, given my friends my bags, my stuffs, the brands, shelter, a ride, whatever u call it. They nvr greet u during festive seasons or on special dates, they never send u regards, they never calls u up on normal days just to see how u r doing right now, they never remember ur birthday, worst, they dun even know ur name ~ Giving out branded bags n clothes aren’t that bad, worst i still can treat it as though ppl helping me to clear my junk. But when u borrow money to someone n they don’t intend to return, it’s not about the money at all, it is about losing a friend forever. They avoid ur calls, they never return ur smses, they never wanna bump into u… Some were afraid that others would know about the money n they start to turn their back on u. They changed, and start treating u like an enemy. Saying heartbreaking things to ur friends so that they save their pride in front of the public. So hows that for playing good guy ? My Chinese sayings ‘ Hou Yan Nan Zou’ ah ~ So, my new policy is – NO CASH NO TALK in business, n DUN BORROW MONEY FROM ME in friendship. Aduh ~ What happen to the world nowadays ? sweat ~

·Save up. Don’t regret when it’s too late

You might be well off some time ago and u’d never thought that anything would happen and u had to use ur back up fund. But why if u’d used it all up n there’s nothing left to spend ? Never have the thinking that u always have to be better off than ur friends. When u see that they have 1 LV, u dig ur wallet and get 1 too. And when u see that they have 2, u went and buy 3. But when ur bank is empty n they’d bought the whole collection back, u have to sell ur 3 bags just to pay the taxi. No more Starhill n Pavilion for u, even worst, no more Sg.Wang. So why show off when the payoff is just for the price of ur pride ? Know ur limits. When ur friends have it n they flaunt it, it doesn’t mean that u have to have it too. Class n lifestyle is just a state of mind. Everyone has it no matter who they are. It’s just that the rate is different. U might not have a branded bag, but u might have something which a well off person would always longed to have. So the admiration goes both ways. It doesn’t have to always be a competition among ur friends, or ended up being compared, or living ur life all on dead objects and creating rivalry wherever u go. Secure ur future. That is what more important for you. If u wanna be the best, learn to maintain n balance d quality of ur life. Then u can really be the best lo ~

·Kiasu, Kiasi

You either get ur feet on the ground and work very hard ; or can still allow urself to keep on spending until the well dries up and then think about it later. U’ve watched enough movies. So it is time to reflect on urself. Sit down n take some time off for urself. Think deep of what u want, what u need, what u don’t want and set a target for urself n then go for it. It is new year. Let us have a chance to fix our fault and start it new again… Let us get it right…

·Have a heart

As for those who’re financially unshuddered, visit an orphanage today. Visit the old folk’s home. Visit those of u love. Donate. Adopt a pet or do something meaningful. Give some love, care and help. Have a happy heart ~ If u need the numbers of certain centre or outlet, tell me. I’ll be happy to forward it to you. May god bless u always …

Though alot of things are happening around the world right now, I am thankful that I’ve had my wonderful time, but this wasn’t it. I hope that u’ve found what u’re looking for in life. Especially at this point of time when the world is turning n changing at such high speed. Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt represents determinism; and the way you play is absolutely free will. So play it well, and take full responsible on the end results. When u lose the game, it doesn’t mean that u’ll lose everything. U can lose the battle, but never lose the war.

Happy Chinese New Year and may ur year be filled with prosperity, luck, joy and ONG ONG ONG ah ~

Love Always … Leng Yein

Thanks for writing to me

I had received alot of appreciation messages regarding my blogs and captions . I would like to take this opportunity to thank all these beautiful people for taking their precious time writing to me typing every single letter sincerely especially the girls who attached their message with their numbers at the bottom and the girls who looked up on me as their role model n inspiration . To be frank im shocked for messages like this showering me from girls coz most of the time girls wont write to girls saying nice things . Girls , thanks for everything . Without u girls , my world wouldn’t be as beautiful and i mean it …
Every captions of mine has their own meaning and story behind … It has been sometime every since i wrote my last blog coz i had been writing my diary everyday instead . I’ll never write something for fun and if i were to choose to do it i rather not writing anything at all … so when i write , i REALLY write …  i’ll sit down for hours in my home sweet home of mine and jot every letter down , words by words … And very word that i say means alot to me … and hope that my story will help you people in your life … coz it does to mine …

Our 8th Wonders of The World - Leng Yein

Our 8th Wonders of The World - Leng Yein

Great Pyramid of Giza is well known for the Unique Creation. And here our dearest Leng Yein is also one of the most unique creation God had ever created.  Her personality , fame , success  , style and etc etc is all unique in her own way. We called it the Leng Yein way. To some she might be a Queen and yes inside the Great Pyramid of Giza there a Queen Chamber inside it.

Then we have the Hanging Gardens of Babylon. This garden is so beautiful. They are sometimes called the Hanging Gardens of Semiramis (in reference to the legendary Queen Semiramis).  Leng Yein is our Legendary Queen Leng Yein in all our heart as well. And she is surely as beautiful as the Hanging Gardens of Babylon.

We also have the Statue of Zeus at Olmpia. Zeus is the leader of God. Leng Yein is a leader that motivate , move and inspire almost everybody around her. Is a symbol of Strength and Power. And so far I do not know any lady or women is as Strong as she is. One of Leng Yein strongest trait is her Strength !

Next we have the Temple of Artemis. Is also known as the Temple of Diana, was a Greek temple dedicated to a goddess Greeks. Yes. Most of us worship or I would like to use the term admired Leng Yein as who she is. We learn from her. We get inspired and motivated by her. She is like a Goddess that hold so strong on her integrity and life value.

At the same time , we have Mausoleum at Halicarnassus or Tomb of Mausolus. The builder found this place is because he needed a safe city to guard the safety of his citizen. To protect themselves from harm. There many out there who always came to Leng Yein for help. And most of the times she will give her best to help those she is being able to help within her ability and capability. She a good listener. She a good problem solver. She is a great protector to a lot of people before in her life since last time until today without fail.

Then we also have Colossus of Rhodes. It was constructed to celebrate Rhodes' victory over the ruler of Cyprus. Yes. The word victory here define Leng Yein victory from overcoming all odds from her hard life to became who she is today. She is not born with silver spoon. It take a lot of sweats , energy , tears , blood and sacrifice to build a gold spoon by herself. Also a victory over a great love and marriage. We called it the best fairy tale ever but is a reality . A victory as 1 of the most inspiring public figure around. And the list just goes on. Why? Her forehead there already written Victory. There just too many uncountable victories in her life.

The Lighthouse of Alexandria, also known as the Pharos of Alexandria , was a tower built between 280 and 247 BC on the island of Pharos at Alexandria, Egypt. Its purpose was to guide sailors into the harbour at night time. From all those things and trait I wrote above. If Leng Yein is not going to be the light that is going to guide all of us then what else should it be ?

Therefore she is surely our 8th Wonders of The World. The only difference is those are man made but she is self made.

Yee Aun
Your Hamba  


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What's winning ... and what's losing ?

I believe that the true test of character is not how much we know how to do , but how we behave when we don’t know what to do. There’s nothing such as a certain right or wrong , it solely depends on how u want to put it and let it be … does right or wrong really matters anyway ? What do u earn from winning ? Is it worth the part that you’re losing ?

When you’re at the most downside of your life, u tend to see things clearer. Coz each move u make mean so much , so much more than the same move u take during normal days. It can be the same topic , the same discussion , the same joke , the same thoughts , regardless of whether it’s u or others , one wont understand until we’re left alone n stuck in the situation .

No matter what other says , no matter what other does doesn’t seemed to bother or matters to u anymore. Coz the decision that u make lies on nobody else in the world but u … n the pain that u bear , gosh , makes u felt so heartless … dying ? It doesnt matters anymore , my heart dies the second the decision was made final … it’ll be alright soon ? i dont think so . This incident breaks me apart … For these years of my life , i never felt so torn before . I know i could never mend all the pieces back together , it was never meant to be mended … it were never to be accepted … wasn’t given a slight chance to , im sorry , im so so sorry … God ~

I felt as though i have no heart … where have all the love gone ? For all my life i’ve been loving everyone else around me , but why is it so different this time . I am so lost … this is the best for everyone ? But what about me ? What about … oh my god , where is all the love ? Where is justice n fairness ? What about my life ? What about how i feel ? What about my dream ? I really break apart n fall this time , deep n hard …

God bless all of you …

May you find peace , love & care … I will never forget you … never … I Love You so much … so so much … im so sorry … so very sorry …

Love,
Leng Yein

A blog from my dear friend .. Star Aun ...

By : Shen Yee Aun – The Handsome Guy With A Kind Heart

Journey Towards A Legendary  10 . 10 . 10

A marathon journey of a great Queen

A journey that is never an easy path to walk

With not born with a pair of Golden shoe

She walked with barefoot

She walked her first step

A step that not many people dare to take

A step without knowing exactly where she will be heading

As the journey goes she walked on Fire

Whatever that comes along her way she still right there walking

Persistence and determine

Strong and powerful

Solid and hard

Against all odds

Then she started to climb a mountain

When the whole world is still there hoping for her to fall

She climbed up much higher

People below trying to pull her legs

People above trying to push her down

She injured but then healed and went up even higher

Along the journey she met a Man

A Man that is predestine to be a King

A Man that is there for her

A Man that is a Man in her Life

God Love them

God Bless Them

Baby Dinasour is born when she is still a Virgin

Just like Mother Mary gave birth to Jesus Christ

Then the history of 09 . 09 . 09 begin

A day where every women of earth is hoping for

A day where every women of earth is wishing for

A day where every women of earth is craving for

She the princess of the entire 09 . 09 . 09 in the whole Universe

Soon this Men is going to hold her hand

Together they climbed the mountain

With Baby Dinasour

Predestine to be a Prince of the Univers

They are reaching soon

Astrology predicted on 10 . 10 . 10

They will finally manage to be at the top of the mountain

That is the day

When she officially being the Queen of the Universe

A new King and Prince is Born

The whole world share the joy and laughter

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